cameron

saya di cameron now..muahahaha

I love the environment here...so nice..the home feeling cannot be describe..neither can it be replace by any other stuffs..

Starbucks in the only hiding place that i like to come back here...because here got free wifi..tho the drinks are really expensive..but to me..as long as i get free internet..a bit of extra money is something i must splash out..

I hate the weather here..its too cold..i hate cold weather..no matter how many layers of shirts i wear...i still kena flu.....kek sei betul...

anyway...who ever planning to come visit me..better do it before this saturday..because i plan to go down 1 day earlier than i planned..which means saturday..as the weather here is really killing me...i dun think i can tahan until sunday...scare i become ice popsicle before i reach back to civilization..muahaha

chicken pox..

i think..my office is full of chicken pox bacteria..= =""

One of my boss's daughter kena chicken pox..and my guess is..i will soon to be the next victim of chicken pox...oh no.....i dun wan to kena chicken pox leh...all these while i have been trying to avoid those ppl who got chicken pox because i know if i got chicken pox at this age..i most probaly will "gg.com" my self..

I am really scare of chicken pox..since yesterday i found out that the daughter had chicken pox..i cant stop thinking that i might be the next because we work in the same office leh...many things tat he touched can easily spread the virus to me..= =""

I have been trying to avoid my boss..but i doubt i will be lucky this time...since yesterday afternoon i felt my whole body quite itchy...(sei for...is the chicken pox bacteria in my body liao??)Gosh..my whole body itchy la...= =""

vacation

After so many months of "hardwork" and also "stress"..i finally decide to go on a vacation to Langkawi..:-D

I m glad that i made this decision because i really need a vacation to get away from all the unhealthy thinking that is going on in my mind..i am so tired..i m so tired until even i get 12 hours or sleep also i am still feeling tired...i hate my life right now..i badly..desperately need a vacation..some where out of Malaysia..especially KL...i hate KL...

I wished that many things that happened before did not occur...i m so tired thinking of the past...i should move on...i wished that i never done some things before..but yet..all these happened..and there is nothing i can do to change the past..

I hope this trip will really charged me up..i know there are many more things ahead..many more obstacles ahead that i need to face..really looking forward to this trip tho its 1 months ++ away...(no choice la..air ticket cheaper if u book earlier..:P)

Something happening

I can sense that something..slowly...slowly..really slow..is happening inside me...

The other day i was having a drink with friend in Subaidah...and i met her new friend...then i realise..lately..i have taken many steps slowly...i starting to feel that i am very "old man " leh..i was suppose to go home before 9..but then i decided to finish the tea ice before i go home..even tho i was really late..but i didnt rush my self at all..it feels strange..because this is so not me..what had happened to me that could make me slow down and take things slowy??i really dun know...

On the way back home..i drove quite slow..i think about 60km/h....(that is slow compare to my normal speed..:-D)..all the way back home..my brain cant stop thinking..what on earth could have make me slow down suddenly...i dun feel the "rush" that i always have..

But then i realised..its because i have just gotten up from a big fall...and my movements are not like old times anymore...i starting to walk slower..and take longer time in completing things..perhaps its a good sign for me because i use to be so rushing until i do/say things without even think...and i make a lot of stupid mistake because of wat i have done...

Reading will soon become a habit to me..well..i admit..i like reading craps..but at least its a start to me right???i have been spending more and more time in bookstores lately..compare to all the previous years i had here...

I have decided to take on guitar lessons from a friend,..but firstly i need to get a guitar..= =""..plan to go hang over for few months until my skills are much more presentable so that i can continue with my "big secret plan" that i had for years..muahahaha...

Same old people..new life..

My dear beloved sister Sherrie is back here liao le....muahaha.i miss her so much..hugged her so long when i saw her in the airport that day..hahaha....

My sister has always guide me thru many things in life..she is like an angel sent by God to guide me..to help me..and most importantly..to help me stand up from the falls i had....She is scary..regardless how nice she look..she is scary..haha..well..even tho she just came back for a few days liao..but we still argue with each other most of the time..just like old times..

Thank you Sherrie for coming back at this time..i got so many things to tell u..so many things happened for the past few months..i really need a shoulder to cry on..T.T..

Life is getting different nowdays..Jz is leaving for internship soon...can u imagine that??my best friend of 18 years is set to leave me alone here for 2 bloody months..or maybe more...haiz..gotta learn on how to come up with something new for my after work plan..

I am so used to having jz around here until i didnt realise that i always count on him in so many ways..i have forgotten on how to find my own entertaiment sometimes..but well..1 thing i learn for the past few months is..when nothing goes in ur way...u just have to accept it and go on with ur life...

Money is getting lesser and lesser..and my new semester of study seems to be fading..haiz..i really wish to study leh..i miss study life..haha..i know..its ironic...hehe..but i really wan to have a degree soon..hmm..any ways for me to loan a big sum of money??send me sms/call my new number to tell me okay??

Blogging will be in my list of activities to do when i bored..haha..welcome back to blogging life..

Am planning a vacation to visit JZ at perhentian beach where he is doing his internship..woo hoo..cant wait for it...(free accomodation can save a lot..okay??)anyone who wans to join please inform me early..because i am planning to go in July...woo hoo..cant wait for it to come...

Forgotten

Have u ever realise that some day..and some how...u just seems to have forgotten something??well..i realise that..because of so many things happened for the past few months...i have forgotten my self...i forgotten what and who that is important in my life...i have learned one of the greatest lesson of all times..

Human will fall down..and eventually learn on how to stand up...We will always keep things in our heart..things that we learned..things that we secretly do and felt..in that little corner in our hearts..because we thought that its the safest place to be..but yet...we didnt realise..that its also the most painful way to keep a memory...

I learned on how to move on..because at this stage.. too many things happen at such a short time...i realise i have forgotten my self...i m tired...i decide to stop waiting..stop hoping..and stop dreaming..this world is cruel...this world is very "real"..there is no more fantasy in this world...

The most important thing is..i have seen the true colours of many things..friendship..love..careers.. and most of all...i have seen the real me..what i am capable of doing...i still keep secrets of my self...but its time to let go..my new life is ahead...

Good bye the old me...